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Trinidad and Tobago
My Pride story.Born and raised in Trinidad and Tobago, a tiny island very close to Venezuela (756  kilometers to be exact), with a population of 1.4 million. We celebrate our 2nd official pride festival next month! July 28th to be exact.My pride story is a journey that is still continuing. I came out to myself in 2013 after completing all my studies (no more further distractions could I find to subdue the inner desire of attraction to women.) Suffocation, torture, depression, sadness are the words that come to mind since I had to suppress my feelings for quite some time. Probably 5 years to be exact. More so as my brother had recently come out to my parents. Sadly in an East Indian family, if you are not straight and married by 30, or a doctor/lawyer/engineer/high level job as society would consider it, you are considered a failure. So yeah, I had to wait a little bit, surrounded by my gay best friend at the time, what else was I suppose to do? Distract myself. So we travelled to Las Vegas and Hawaii together and when I came back home I made up my mind to explore these feelings inside. Was it just a phase? Surely not if I had crushes on girls since I was probably 9 years old! I told my best friend we were going to the gay club every Saturday night until I find a nice girl that I could connect with. Initially I treaded the waters by going on a bisexual website and making friends with girls who liked girls. It was lovely. I did have a short online relationship with one and then she set me free to find a woman in Trinidad who can give me her all.This was November 2013. I met Zaidee in December 2013 in the same said club. Meant to be I would say and she rarely ever went there. Her dancing is what caught my attention. I am super shy so I had my wing guy with me, he asked her if I could dance with her and she said yes and that was that. Sparks flew, attraction, exchange of numbers, messaging, dates, official gf and gf by Jan 2014!!! My bestie literally cursed me! He was searching for love for a while now after a terrible cheating experience, and I remember him saying “WTF! You literally came out to yourself in September and made an effort in November to find someone and boom in December you did!” Haha. Guess the angels were on my side for that. This is my second relationship in my 36 years of existence. I consider myself blessed, grateful and lucky.Part 2.Found the girl...what now?Lying, coming home late, driving from South to North Trinidad every weekend to get time together, working in North Trinidad helped. We saw each other for a short time every day. Ok, where do we make out? Can’t by her parents, they’re strict catholic, I can’t even tell my parents as yet, so back seat kissing it was like teens hiding from their parents.Yeh that lasted a hot 3 minutes, before my mom’s family started seeing me with this and I quote “white” girl all over. We don’t see race, Zaidee (my fiancé) and I. We just see 2 souls in love with each other. My mom flat out asked me what was going on so I was like, ok if your’e asking, be ready for the answer. So I came out to her. Don’t have to tell you that was a hot mess and sent me into depression. A gay son now a gay daughter what did she do wrong? The famous line...I waited a year to tell my dad, he took it a little better, I was always a daddy’s girl. He loves me unconditionally and I am forever grateful for that. My immediate family have welcomed the new Patrice with a woman in her life. Moving in together further solidified the seriousness of the relationship. All I can say is that being true to yourself and not putting your worth or validation in the hands of others is the best thing that you can do! I feel free! The only persons I felt I needed to explain or tell were my parents, and that hurdle has been crossed. It takes time... it’s 2019 now they come over to our place and treat me with respect and when Zaidee and I visit their home they do the same for her also. Anytime my mom goes off track I set my boundaries to protect my energy and my love and then things go back on track. I am not going to hide who I love, my friend from Canada told my feeling bad about who I am or who I love indicates that there is something wrong with it...and he said nothing is wrong with loving another person of the same sex. My other friend told me , “Darling you owe no explanation to anyone about anything because they are not paying your bills and you have to sleep at night.”I keep these words of advice near always as a reminder. Zaidee and I now hold hands, hug, exchange kisses in public, and have the attitude of well...deal with it if it makes you uncomfortable! We keep our boundaries with religious family members who have their opinions about homosexuality...we don’t let their negative energy near us, and we promise NOT to adjust ourselves for the comfort of others. We do not have a disease, we love each other.This year we are going to be part of Trinidad’s pride festival, I take photos for a living, so I’m hoping to capture the epic celebrations on parade day. In April 2018 Trinidad and Tobago’s high court declared the country’s buggery law unconstitutional, as it infringed on the right of the LGBT community! Progress! Yasssss.Finally I have to mention Juliantina! Inspiring, real, raw, correct representation of what some lgbtq members have to go through. Motivation to keep on keeping on and love who you love. Thanks to a dear friend who introduced me to them. I have been a fan ever since! Thanks to storyplace for giving me the opportunity to share my pride story and lastly thanks to Macarena and Barbara for portraying the roles of Val and Juls exceptionally well. You will always be remembered for what you did, and for that I say a massive thank you. 💕🌈Love and light, xo Patrice This is my pride story! 🌈🌈🌈🌈
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