You woke up early today. You looked beautiful this morning with the light of possibility in your eyes and your lips filled with gratitude. You stared in the mirror a while longer. “Good day or bad day I’ll still be here” I breathed. You look puzzled so I repeated it until you got to your car. A new audio book droned out your incredulity. As you went over your mental to do list of the day, I remarked about the sun. Today the sun is shining like you needed it I sighed. Can you feel the warmth? You closed your eyes for a second while you were driving and smiled. See, I love that about you. The way you’ve learned to appreciate the things you do nothing to receive or enjoy. You’ve learned that good day or bad day the sun still shines for you. Your turn signal clicks on Beulah Rd and I wait for you to tighten your grip on the steering wheel and look at your rear view mirror back and forth but you don’t. You sit and try to pay attention to the audio book. The coffee place you love is close by and you’ve not tasted the coffee yet but you’re buzzing. It’s a long day, and I know that coffee doesn’t make it a shorter day, but it makes it better. What a weird thing that a drink is more than a drink. Sometimes it’s a; moment, your favorite song, a dream, a love story. And today? You ask, taking the first sip of your almond milk latte. Today is hope I answer, today is courage, today is your day. Ezra is waiting for you with his mask in his chin and his cheeky smile as he greets you before you’ve had a chance to badge. “Hey hey hey you haven’t been wanting to see me or what” “I was just giving you a chance to miss me” you high five him on the way to the elevator. How you do that so flawlessly? Welcome people in. Make them giggle, laugh, blush, make them care and feel important at the same time? You’ve planned the logistics of today for your team. If all goes well it’s all thanks to you and as you like to remind me, if all goes terribly it will also be all thanks to you. PI planning, deliverables, meetings, lunch, emails, more meetings and you do it all with a positive attitude. No one would guess how much you had to go through to get here. To get to the 27th floor. To get to be this joyful you, this whole you. Tony looks at his watch as you leave to the event you planned. “Perfect time to leave I see” he smiles at you and you smile back giving him the bag of peanut M&M’s, his favorite, your favorite. Giving back you tell me, is the perfect antidote to a stressful day. The day turns to night and you sit at a table asking everyone their love story. Vanessa is getting married September 17th a destination wedding in Seattle. Jessica and Tommy locked eyes in a college escalator and Tommy organized a party that night just to invite Jessica. Mike bought a ring for his wife after two weeks of meeting her and gave his wife the ring the third week after his wife told him he wouldn’t dare marry her. Oh but he dared. They’ve been married for 10 years now. Matt and his husband engraved their own unique rings and got engaged in Disney World. Rachel was volunteering at a refugee event when her husband one of the volunteers said “Hey I’m new in Dallas what do you do for fun?” They’ve been having fun ever since. These details are important to you. You listen and you beam and aww and I can’t help love seeing you this way. Loving people. Loving their stories and being overwhelmed with their vulnerability. So tonight you’ll go to sleep in your warm bed listening to the rain and smiling just as if you’re feeling the sun. Good day or bad day I’ll still be here. xx kathia
