Hapiness... Strong and powerful word, honestly I don't know what is like. When I was a kid I never felt happy, I couldn't remember one single time when I felt that feeling. I grew up traveling around the country, when I was 4 years old my mom and I moved to another city in a different state where we had no family, she had a new husband so I guess she wanted to start again, that marriage didn't work either, her first marriage was with my dad, which was like a ghost the first 8 years of my life, I don't remember if I missed him, because he never was for me. I remember when I was in a conference where the speaker was telling to his audience, go to your childhood, remember that time when you felt free and happiest, and I couldn't do it, that got me thinking, do I know what it's like to feel happy? * Nowadays is a current feeling... I do not know how to be happy, what is happiness?, how does that feel?. Still don't know. I guess I have to create it, but how? One of the things that makes me feel good is writing, because I have the feeling that this is the only way I can honestly clear my mind, and my mind is full af every day. So write for me is like a medicine, I always wanted to be a writer, I still dream with my first book, I can imagine the way I will feel when I have my book in my hands, and to be able to conect with people through a story created by me will be amazing. Life passed, I'm not a writer yet, so for me to be able to express myself here is comforting. So I may be still searching the meaning of happiness... for now i will concentrate myself in the good things that i enjoy, like writing. This was my first blog written in english if you see grammar mistakes please let me know, one of the things that I enjoy the most is learning english. Thanks!
